20 July 2012

This new city.

So staying in a different city, all by yourself, living life on your own terms and living weekends..Sounds so fucking cool right? only sounds exciting till you really have to live that way. Maybe the thought of independence really does excite you. But it's short-lived when you're really living it.

So I'm living in a city, away from loved ones only because I have my dreams to fulfil. DREAMS.
And if you think that people who get to live this 'independent' life are way too lucky,then let me tell you this..

We do curl up inside our blankets and cry out of homesickness.
We do miss our mom's kisses and dad's hugs when we do really well.
We miss that best friend who used to live down the street and could be met conveniently at any given point of time.
We miss being pampered.
We miss that mother who rums behind us with a plate full of food because we're getting late and have no time for breakfast.
We miss waiting to spend our Sundays with our father.
Those heart to heart conversations with a brother who lived in the same building.
Going down aimlessly for a walk to kill boredom.
Leaving the milk glass on the dining table, clothes being washed by the washing machine, not getting up early because you have someone to get you breakfast as soon as you're up.
We miss being careless.
We miss our parents who did so much for us. We realize it now, all the love and all the lessons. It's not easy to wash your own clothes, manage your own meals, clean your own workspace and wardrobe, run a house.. None of it is easy. We all take life for granted because our parents do all the work for us..but when you have to do it on your own,it's only then that you realize how hard it is. You might not be facing the world now, but someday you will have to. You will have to get out of that comfortable shell of yours. For you, for your future and for many other reasons. Your social life might die. The friends who loved you so much would just be heard over the phone. That too sometimes only. Life won't be a cake walk, you will have to bake the cake. And if you bake it well, you can enjoy eating it for the rest of your life. But obviously, you have to earn the ingredients yourself!

On the positive side of it, you learn how to deal with people and manage your finances. You learn the value of money. You feel the essence of an individual life. But as of now, homesickness is all that I can feel. Although my dreams keep me going.. Maybe I will settle with time. And for the one's who are staying with their parents through degree college, you'll are really lucky! *envy*