A crumpled soul.

She now lived in one of the monasteries situated in the remote areas amidst the snow clad mountains.
It was a place not many people knew about.
The placidity and serenity of the place always comforted her soul.
She was convinced that she could stay there till her her breath lasted, unidentified.
No one knew who she was, where she had come from or what had made her come there. And no one bothered to question her about all of that either for she seemed to be a hurt, unaided yet content soul. She smiled. She smiled all the time.
As she stood there amidst the scenic rocks, she experienced a sense of protection.
She had spent all her life in obeying commands, undergoing disrespectful sacrifices and prejudices of hopes which never lasted long. She had been considered ignoble.
Until last fortnight, she had nothing to live for.
She now had a heart devoid of emotions. Her heart which was once fragile was broken into pieces. And the pieces were broken into many more pieces. Only she knew how she had sailed through. Or probably docked her way out.
But none of it mattered now.
She was away from all the pain, slavery, misery and sacrifices.
She loved this mediocre place with a meager population.
It was better than the classy suite she once resided in.
Because here, she got a chance to live for herself.

One more heart that was stopped.

Month one:
Mummy.
I am only 3/4th of an inch long.
But I have all my organs.
I LOOVE the sound of your voice :)
Every time I hear it,
I wave my arms and legs ^__^
The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.

Month two:
Mummy.
Today I learned how to suck my thumb :O
If you could see me,
You could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month three:
You know what Mummy?
I am a GIRL! :D
I hope that makes you happy :)
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry :(
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too :'(
And I cry with you..
Even though you can't hear me.

Month four:
Mummy.
My hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine.
But I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes..
And stretch my arms and legs ^_^
I'm becoming quite good at it B-)

Month five:
You went to the doctor today.
Mummy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby :O
I'm a baby mummy, I am your baby.
I think and I feel.
Mummy, what's abortion?

Month six:
I can hear the doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mummy what's it?
It burns. :(
Please mummy please, make him stop.
I can't get away from it!
Please mummy please, help me :'(

Month seven:
Mummy.
I am okay.
I am in God's arms. O:)
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why din't you want me mummy?




Every abortion is just..
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

"But I feel that the greatest destroyer of peace today is abortion, because it is a war against the child - a direct killing of the innocent child - murder by the mother herself. And if we accept that a mother can kill even her own child, how can we tell other people not to kill one another?" - Mother Teresa.


^PS. This is one of the most touching forwards that I have ever come across.
I just HAD to share it with everyone. :)
So I modified it a little and posted.

iFeelOhSoWeird!!

Let's face this.
Someday when you need someone the most, that person will probably leave you. Mostly for someone else.
When you will want to step out of your way for someone, you might just face disappointment.
You will just keep facing the situations you want to avoid!
You will fail one or twice and probably sit back feeling unworthy and blame destiny. Don't.
Karma does exist. And will hit back at you irrespective of whether you believe in it or not.
When life will give you a second chance, take it. Not everyone gets it! Don't take it for granted.
Apologize, only when its needed. Seriously. Or you'll be expected to do so always.
At times you will really need to get a life!
You will cry and no one will care.

There's a line between not being egoistic and losing your self respect. You will cross it someday for someone whose unworthy.
People will take you for granted.
You'll make the wrong choice.
You'll repent and regret stuff in life.
You'll lose people.
Things will just not go your way.
You'll be heart broken.
Someone you love just won't love you back.
But that's how it is supposed to be.

Forever is a lie.
Biggest lie ever.

People will miss you only for a day or two after you die.

And for now, I'm over-flowing with pessimism. :|


PS. Steve Jobs resigned =(

PPS. Jan Lokpal Bill passed! Anna Hazare ftw. Mobocracy rules B) Booo you Government! XD

Title?

Yes,
I laugh a lot, even when it's not required.
I cry when I feel extremely happy.
I show that I don't care, but I do.
I pretend to be strong and dis-passioned, even when I'm extremely passionate but weak.
I talk a lot, when I'm nervous.
I goof up things and end up making a fool out of myself.
I try to go anti-love and end up falling in love, again.
I suck at expressing my feelings.
I love dancing in the rains and jumping in puddles, even though I behave in a sophisticated most of the times.
I realize the fact that people take advantage of me, but I don't do anything about it.
I know how it feels to be taken for granted, but somehow I end up at the same place again.
My self confidence doesn't take a minute to degrade, but I won't show.
I say I expect nothing, and people tend to believe that lie.
I behave unhurt even when I want people to realize their mistakes and apologize.
I behave all sorted, even when I'm messed up.

Not because I want to pretend, but because I love living in my own shell..

And, I love being random.

Just noticing.

It's about how we sail through every hard situation.
And then when another hard situation arises, we gather hope from the previous one.

The way we feel weak and strong both, while choosing between the right and the desired.

How we always keep cribbing about something we're not and ignore something that we are.

The way every person gives us at least one reason to be jealous of him/her.

How we always find someone whose more optimistic than we are, and someone whose life is worse than ours.

How the short one's die to get tall and how the tall one's wish that they weren't as tall as they are.

How people express their boredom in creative ways.
And then they get bored of getting bored.
And then bored of being bored of getting bored (& it goes on and on an on!)

Everyone has the ONE best friend in their life, who will be supportive through the right and the wrong.

People change with time and experiences. Some decisions make one stronger, while some soften the person.

The songs that I can relate to my life. I feel like the song had been written by extracting inspiration from my story.

How everyone has a different story to tell, a different promise to make..

How all the teens undergo the very same problems and still believe that theirs is of the highest magnitude.

How the funniest songs become the most  famous ones! (Baby, Friday etc..:P)

How movies inspire the way we look at life and give us hope.

The pictures we all click to capture the memories, the sentimental talks we have, the songs we relate, the secrets we share, the love that binds all of us, how we feel special on our birthdays..

Everyone has one trait that others go "Are-you-mad?" about :P
(Mine- i HATE surprises. Be it parties, gifts or visits.)

They way the definition of friendship changes from one person to another.

How one emoticon can express your mood.

The way people have irreplaceable people and relations : )

Was just noticing. :)

It happens with everyone else too! ^_^

I am not the only one whose been betrayed by a friend. Even others have been.
I am not only one to suffer from heartbreak. Even others have to.
I cry, get moody, fight, feel lonely, suffer helplessly, cry before getting injected (faint after it!), give 100 reasons for not taking a medicine, secretly envy smarter people, bunk oral exams, behave like an egoistic bitch, refuse to apologize, feel like a sucker when it comes to blogging, feel like I cannot make friends, get wicked, throw my moodswings at my best friends, write silly rhymes, find idiotic ways to overcome boredom, read the same word so many times that it finally looks meaningless, feel alienated at times, crave for eating Maggi at dinner time, fail to understand a few jokes, get out-witted...but at one point of time even others have undergone/ will undergo all of this!
Every person has problems. I am not the only one.
At one point in life, every person realizes the importance of being strong and independent. Even I will!

It's not like I'm happy that others have problems.
It's just that seeing them get through those gives me hope and satisfaction.
I know that I am not the only one suffering and of course I do not own all the problems in the  world!

So whatever happens with me in life..
At a point of time...
Happens with everyone else too! ^___^

Life. Random thoughts. Rantings.

LIFE.That's the word that no one can ever describe in an accurate manner.
It's just there!
Tragic, comedy, hectic, depressing, fun, miraculous, placid, happening, amazing, awesome, pathetic, horrible, horrendous etc.
(Varies from person to person, from mood to mood and from situation to situation.)
Every day, while I am doing nothing I get random thoughts.
(Ranging from philosophical statements to making plans of killing someone brutally.)

There are times when I hate everyone in the world.
Every person seems like a huge burden to me, to man-kind.
Everyone selfishly seems to be involved in their own problems. Expecting you to be there, but not being there for you.
Sounds so "Waav".
:/

There are times when I just feel amazing for a being a person who tries to BE THERE for everyone.
No really. That feeling of trying also gives me content.

There are times when I listen to 'I'll be there for you' over and over again and go nostalgic like a mad cow.
No trust me, it really does give me happiness.
I love those 'flashbacks' I get.
They're one of the bestest things in the world!
:)

I have this thing for dramatical responses.
They infuse some kind of an enthusiasm in me!
(^ Bare my randomness.)

I have a tendency to get sentimental over every single thing.
From being someone's bestfriend, to being hated by a person, on being a daughter, on being a Ruiaite to being an ex-tps-ite!
I'm just overflowing with sentiments!
And my friends.
OH MY FRIENDS.
They never get tired of saying 'kitna senti hoti hai bey!' or 'nautanki sali!' or 'Ishi, you deserve the Oscar! No you really do.'

Oh, and there are these chicks in my college who are high on Engl..

Ok. Chuck that.
I don't know what to write further.
So I'm going to end this post on an abrupt note!

Sayo Nara!
:/