Psyched up!

I love my 'oh-so-hectic life!'
:D

What gives me happiness these days is college.
Cultural preparations.
Hangouts.
New friends.
I now think that the definition of happiness certainly changes with time.
And it should.
Happiness is certainly something which comes by choice.
If you choose to be happy, you will be.
:)

God, I feel so thoughtful at times.
^_^

Crossing- roads and fun levels.

Well!
Life is back on track!

I feel amazing when college keeps me busy.
Cultural stuff is awesome.

December is such an eventful month.

It started with Kshitij '10 and then Mood-I is coming up! And then well of course, so is my college fest!

You get the most amazing feeling when you walk down the street with your friends, late at night laughing on the most retarded things ever. And oh yes, singing songs like maniacs. :P

Just one of the small things that make me happy!

And oh yes,
I was finally successful in crossing the highway ON MY OWN.
Yes, I'm kinda one of those who don't know how to cross!
OK, wait. WAS.
:D
Achievement! :D *drum roll*

And yes, such silly things do make me feel happy.:S

Just one of those sentimental mood swings.

Friends!
Who are they?
The one who make you believe that the world is not as bad as it seems.
They are the one's who can not only manage to make you smile but also make sure that you break into fits of laughter, even when you are not in a mood to smile.
They make you want to live. They are the one's who fathom that you are the best, no matter what.
They are simply the cause of your survival.

Be it a heartbreak, an emergency, mood swings, rough days or whatever-Friends are always there- TO THE RESCUE!

*I feel so sentimental right now*

All the letters and cards, policies and rules, sleepovers, hangovers, hangouts.
Everything.
Little things that give happiness.
I love you guys.
All my friends :)
For being there.
Making my life Awesome.
Giving me an identity.
And - For accepting me the way I am. :)
For what I am. :D

And for making me feel special and giving me a reason to exist.

I love you all. :)

*BIGGGG HUGGG!*

About feeling helpless.

It when a have a really close friend.
its when you want that friend to have ALL the happiness he deserves.
But you CANNOT help it, but read what he feels.

Its a post from his blog.

Read on:

....A moment in past when i was all wrong.
Sometimes we just neglect the consequences.
Sometimes we are ready to sacrifice evrything.
Sometimes we walk that extra mile.
Sometimes we do things that we know wunt give us happiness in future.
Sometimes we repeat the same mistakes again and again.
Evrytime we repeat it gets uglier.
We Just Live that moment. That's the moment when after few days or months or years..we realize that We Were ALL WRONG.

But somewhere we love to do such mistakes.
Somewhere we love to have broken hearts.
Those tears. those lonely times.
But ugly is d Truth.
The truth we tend to ignore.
The truth we wished was just a nightmare.


Its the change of state.
The Rock we were holding tightly suddenly becomes the sand we can neva hold tightly.
IT all changes. It all slips away. Right beneath our eyes. Right from our hands.

That very moment we curse that one moment from the past when we were right yet we were wrong.

That is the moment that makes us a breeding ground of all the potential guilts.
Guilt that just kills you inside out.
That moment when u dont sit to write down all this.
that moment u just need a shoulder.
that moment is d one when u just dont wanna live.
but u stilll survive..for a better tmrw.
running away from those dark hurting secrets....hiding ur emotions.
When you just wanna scream that its the not what you had asked for.
Yet no answer to ur questions.
That moment when u cry , u r not weak. u r not cryng on urself.
You cry coz a moment in past you were all right yet it all went wrong and It seemed to b the worstest moment of your life.



Ma moment in past when i was all wrong was when i thought i will neva have to come to this page to edit it.
But as they say....it all comes down to where you started.
the world keeps spinning. today i rectify the mistake by coming here.
Coz running away is not the solution.
Coz der is nuthing better than to accept truth sumtimes
The Truth that hurts is the truth that heals. The moment in past that was right is all wrong now.



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Break ups can fuck the shit outta teens.

So here's a message for my friend-

Dont pretend.
Let it out.
Dont worry of what the world will think.
Cry it out.
Pretending aint gonna help.
Share, cry.
Once the crying is over, you will be happy.
And that happiness is going to be REAL.

Friendship.

This post is dedicated to two special friends.
Very special friends.
:)
They might not live in the town i live in.
They might not even get to see me for ages.
But they have helped me.
Been by my side through thick and thin.
They know when I cry and know when I laugh.
They know how to perfectly make me smile.
They pass on hope.

I love them.

We have had times of togetherness even when we weren't together.
We cried when our hearts broke, fought when we felt agitated.
Laughed when something special came along.
We are not even close to being perfect. We might not be the COOL types, but we share the love and relationship people can only dream of. {long distance ;)..]

If one undergoes a heartbreak, the other two experience the pain.
[As filmy as it sounds, but it does happen!]


So this one's for you girls [Swati and Akshita]-
I love you both!
And don't you guys ever leave me!

Friends Forever :)
<3
X

And that's where I belong.

I am about to enter a NEW world.
A totally new one.
Its not the same anymore.
I don't know where life will take me.
Is this where I belong?
I don't know.
:)

But I wish I do.

At times I wonder- Will my idea of HAVING FUN remain the same forever?

I miss old times.
Not long ago did I want my hectic life to come to an end.
I wanted my hectic schedule to end so that I could not have restrictions and rules.
I would no more have to wake up at 6 in the morning and asking mom to give me five more minutes to complete my slumber.
I would no more have to wear the uniform (which was kinda cute) and find reasons to not drink bournvita right in the morning.
My tie would no more be hanging in my neck untied and i would no more be running with my sandwich in my hand and gulping it inside the life.
The though of not doing all that anymore used to excite me.
But now I think- Is that what i REALLY wanted?
Well i don't think so. :S

Back in time- I was totally busy. I did not have time for myself. And now i think that it was the life i wish i would have FOREVER. <3 That way my mood swings were in control. I did not have the time to think about how lonely I was or how unwanted few people made me feel. I never had to think about how fascinated people were about their relationships (Well i thought that it was complete SHITE to do pda and flaunt about your boyfriends all the time in front of people who wouldn't give a shite.)
All that brought happiness in my life was the fun i had in class.
The way people supported me over others! [*flaunt*]
The way I used to play pranks on anyone and everyone.
The way I used to roam around in my throw ball jersey.
The way i used to bunk classes.
The way i used to get irritated every time a girl told me how casual i behaved with the guys.

I loved the way people yelled petnames (mine!) in the corridoors loudly.
I behaved like a total drama queen then, but then I knew it was their way of expressing their love. :)
I miss that too.

In fact,

I never thought I would actually miss all this.

Now,
Who would complete my lab manuals?
&&
Who would tell me reasons for not doing my homework?

Who would care if I did not attend my classes for a day?

I don't know how the new place [college] will be.
But talking about school- Well, that's the place I will ALWAYS belong to.
<3


*Nostalgia*